Wednesday, June 24, 2009

Charging head on

Last night I watched "Front of the Class" on HBO. It's based on the life of Brad Cohen who has Tourette's Syndrome (a neurological disorder characterized by repetitive, stereotyped, involuntary movements and vocalizations called tics. I'm not writing a movie review so I'm gonna keep it short. I like it and I recommend people to watch it.

I'm kind of jealous of Brad Cohen. Not jealous of his Tourette's but his optimism. He has a disability and yet he never gives up. After watching the movie, I was inspired. I told myself I should give optimism a shot. I'm not pessimistic (to others anyway). I consider myself a realist or balance-ist (Look it up the dictionary... the word doesn't exist). A balance-ist is a person who will be optimistic or pessimistic depending on the situation. If I have a friend who's down and pessimistic about something, I'll help him look at the bright side of it. If ignorantly and overly optimistic about something, I'll give him a reality bitch slap. Don't get their hopes too high but don't let them go too low either. Everything in moderation.

Being optimistic is hard for me. I hate being disappointed. I guess when I was a kid I was let down a lot and developed this defense mechanism to avoid people/events/things that may cause any disappointment. Optimism is about focusing on your desires and I'm used to focusing on my fears. It's not "I want this to happen" but "I don't want this to happen". So as a step in improving my life, from now on I will not avoid eye contact! I will not avoid women that are flirting with me or overly friendly women! I will not avoid opportunities that may cause disappointment! I will not avoid running over a pedestrian! Hurrah!

Friday, June 19, 2009

Don't judge me!

I did something bad yesterday and I feel guilty about it. Oh the shame of it! D:

My friends and I went to see a client of ours to show the design of their website. The client didn't get to see it because the file mysteriously disappeared. Sucks. So after that we went to another friend's house but before that we stopped by a Burger Machine. They have this "Buy 1 Take 1 Jumbo Burger" promo. There were four of us. I let them order for me. I thought they ordered FOUR "Buy 1 Take 1"s.

Sadly, I was wrong. I already started eating my friend's share while he was searching for it. I honestly thought we were supposed to have two burgers each. :( He was okay with it (A true friend.... unlike me.) but finishing the burger was hard. Every bite was accompanied by guilt.

Moral lesson of the story. Choose your friends wisely. :P

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

This blog ain't longer a virgin.

Woohoo my first post!

I'm not exactly new to blogging. I had two blogs in the past. Both were failures. Reason is I got lazy. Hopefully, this one will last more than a month. :D

I'm just posting this to see how the template I downloaded works. XD

EDIT: First template I used was awesome but it had some problems. Bummer. So I'll be using this one instead. Simple, clean and no problems (as of now).