What's happening?

I'm still on break from work. How long does it take to replace a damn video card? I need some freelance works to kill some time productively.

I've watched all 7 seasons of Buffy and read the season 8 comics. 2 more before the season ends and the next one will be out next month. I like Sarah Michelle Gellar. There's just something about her that attracts me.

I'm sleeping late again. I guess the lack of work made me lose motivation on sleeping early.

Here are two videos that will definitely make you smile.

I Likee

After hearing this on Leverage (cool US TV series), I googled for the lyrics but found this instead. And I was not the only one who looked for it after hearing it. It's not really a "song" though. Nice, isn't it?

Time, Money and Life

A friend of mine wrote on her blog about how she is getting old, maturing and how she wants to stay 22 forever. I feel the opposite. I spent most of life avoiding reality, just playing games, staring into space, pondering about things that really don't have answers. I feel like I've been 16 the whole time, and time just started moving again, and now I have a lot of catching up to do.

I need to start living my life. I don't know where this sudden rush of life came from but I'm guessing I'm bored of being bored. I'm going to start by focusing on my career as a graphic designer. I took a job to earn experience. I'm learning stuff, but I feel the learning curve is slow because I'm not stressed out by the work (although my eyes are). I know it's only been a week, but I want to "reach" 23 before the year ends.

Why am I in a hurry? Because I want to be filthy rich before I reach 30 ...or just financially stable so I can live life with less worries.

Sorry, I'm taken.

It's official. I'm no longer a bum. I start work tomorrow as a trainee, 2-month training period, Monday to Fridays, 9am to 6pm, with training allowance of P200 per day.

The past few weeks I've only been reading about logo design and branding. Time to focus on web design. :P

Today, 2pm - 4pm : Complete Waste of Time

"Job Offer Thu, Aug 20, 3PM. *******************************************. Pls reply to confirm." (*** company name and address)

So do I have a job? No.
Did I turn it down? No.
So what happened?

I went and arrived there at least 10 mins to 3pm., knocked on the door at least 5 times before someone answered, got interviewed again by an employee (he didn't know the job was already offered), asked to wait for the boss and after less than a minute was told the boss was in a meeting and won't be going back so they'll just contact me again.

I was not pissed. Annoyed but not mad. What annoyed me the most was when the employee said "Umalis kasi boss namin di na daw makapaghintay." (-_-) WHAT THE EF?

I felt tired on the way back home.

On the way down the stairs of the LRT station, I saw a group of cleaners huddled on one side of the stairs. (How many people does it take to clean a set of stairs? The answer is 4.) There was a divider and the sign "CAUTION: WET FLOOR". One the cleaners (gay) spoke (or more like announced) loudly , "Mas masarap pa ang lalake kesa sa merienda." then "Mas masarap pa ang lalake kesa sa tinapay." then another "Mas masarap pa ang lalake kesa sa tinapay." Was it an initiation for the United Gay LRT Janitors or was he promoting cannibalism? I'm not sure if they were all gay since I felt down and was only looking on the floor. I didn't even look up when it started.

Damn it. There's no ice cream to lighten my mood. :(

Joey's Poem Against Willie

The funeral cortege of former Pres. Cory Aquino: My tears came naturally
by Joey de Leon

Wala na sa piling ng mga Pilipino,
Tinig ng awiting Mga Kababayan Ko,
At lumisan na rin noong isang Sabado,
Inang nagpalipad sa awiting Bayan Ko.
Ako'y sumasaludo, paalam Pangulo,
May isa 'kong lihim, kay tagal itinago,
Sa lahat nang inabot kong mga namuno,
Tanging ikaw lang sa luha ko'y nagpatulo.

Marami ang nalungkot sa iyong pagyao,
Magalang ang lahat at puno ng respeto,
Nagpasalamat pa nga Kapamilya sa 'yo,
Dahil kanilang himpilan naibalik mo.

Subalit ano itong nabalitaan ko?
Nangyari noong Lunes, a-tres ng Agosto,
Habang inililipat ang mga labi mo,
Ika'y parang nabastos sa isang TV show.

At ang napakasaklap at masakit dito,
Ang nambastos pa'y kapamilya ng anak mo,
Napanood ito ng tao at publiko,
Kakaunti na nga, ngunit lahat nahilo.
Sabi ng TV host na mainit ang ulo
Pagkakita sa video na kanyang kasalo,
"Sandali, meron akong ano... sa'ting ano...
Hindi naman sa ano," nagkaanu-ano!
Ayon sa Internet, meron pa s'yang nasambit,
"Sana pakitanggal muna 'yan sa'ting traffic..."
At 'di maaalis sa iyong pag-iisip,
Ang parada ng patay ang pinaliligpit!
At dagdag pa daw ng naghahari-harian,
"I don't think na dapat n'yong ipakita iyan..."
Nasaan naman ang paggalang, o nasaan?
Mga sinasabi natin minsa'y pag-ingatan.

At 'di pa nangimi nang sumunod na araw,
Pinilit pa ring ginawa n'ya ay tama raw,
Mga nakarinig 'di na nakagalaw
At ayon sa iba sila na la'y napa-wow!

"... Pero ako, totoo 'ko eh ... ", sabi kuno,
Totoo nga at totoo ring walang modo,
Pwede namang sabihin itong pa-sikreto,
Kaya't wala na rin mga paliwanag mo.

"Kung ganyan, pakita na lang 'yan!", ang hamon pa,
Para bang ang prusisyon nila-"lang - lang" lang ba,
Ang pangasiwaan ay pinapili pa n'ya,
Sumunod ang himpilan, nung August 5 wala s'ya.

May mga komentong pwede nang pang-harapan,
"On camera" baga sa TV ang tawag d'yan
At kung sensitibo man ang gustong bitawan,
Pagpasok ng commercial, hintayin mo na lang.

Matutong magbaba muna ng mikropono
At saka idikta lahat ng iyong gusto,
Lagi kang mataas lahat daw takot sa 'yo,
Ratings lang ang mababa — totoo ba ito?

The breaking news breaks your heart — at 'yan ang bawi mo,
Nang mahalata mong sumablay ang pasok mo,
Pero sigurado ika'y maa-abswelto,
'Di ba ikaw rin ang may-ari ng network n'yo?
Nung Hueves nag-apologize sa diario naman,
O, akala ko ba wala kang kasalanan,
Tapos ng angalan, sunod paliwanagan —
COMPLAIN before you EXPLAIN ka na naman!
O ito kaya ay isa na namang "glitch" lang,
Tulad ng "two-zero" 'di na natin nalaman,
O ito ay maliwanag na kabobohan?
Sa tingin ng marami, mahirap lusutan.

Ang sabi ng iba — istupidong mayabang,
At giit ng iba — istupidong mayaman,
Mayaman man o mayabang ang tiyak diyan,
Napakayaman n'ya sa kaistupiduhan.

Buti pa ang apat na honor guards ni Cory —
Sina Malab, Laguindan, Rodriguez, Cadiente,
Walong oras tumayo sa ulan at viaje,
Ang lahat ay tiniis at walang sinabi.

Samantalang ikaw na may bubong sa ulo,
Komportable ka lang sa malamig na studio,
Nang kapirasong libing sa TV sumalo,
Angal at inis ang sumambulat sa iyo.

Maaari din namang pabayaan na s'ya,
Subalit ang nangyari'y mabigat talaga,
Namayapang pangulo'y huling paalam na,
'Di mo pa pinagbigyan ... hoy, nag-iisa ka!

At nais ko lang sabihin at ipagyabang
Sa mahigit na s'yam na libong tanghalian,
Sa limang pangulong sa Bulaga'y dumaan,
Kahit isa wala kaming nilapastangan.

Interview #4

If you're an avid reader or worshipper of my blog (the coolest one in Ongpin), remember my post about a job I applied that required to make a conceptual site and they post the submissions on a forum? Well, I just had an interview there.

It was one of the best interviews I had. First, it was informal. He used Tagalog from the start. The interviewer graduated from De La Salle University. He remembered my name and face from the resume in jobstreet (I think? Or did I meet him during my college days? Oh shit.) Second, I was praised. He said out of all the submissions they only liked mine. (EGOOOOO BOOOOOSTEEEEER!) Not that there were any other great designs but still... I even tried to defend some of the submissions by saying there were one or two decent ones. (What's wrong with me? Humble much?) He said, "Mmm, they're okay but your's was still the best." (Or I just want to hear that. Fishing much?)

The place was okay. A small building. Each floor has 4 small rooms. The room I was in was clean and there was air conditioning. He said they'll contact me again within the week. I initially thought I wouldn't like it there but now I'm thinking it might not be bad.

The Willie Revillame-Cory Aquino Scandal

So right now I'm listening , for the first time, and writing down the words he's saying in the video. (I know, bored much?) I'm going to analyze it to see why people are making an issue out of this because from what I've heard Willie found it inappropriate to show simultaneously Wowowee and the funeral of Cory. In my opinion, it is inappropriate. It's like being happy in a funeral or the music "Beautiful Life - Ace of Base" playing in a funeral procession. I don't watch Wowowee. I'm not a fan of Willie. In fact, I think he's a sleazebag but he had nothing to gain by cutting off the feed nor is he stupid enough to intentionally insult the Aquinos. So what went wrong?

"Meron akong ano... sa ating ano... di naman sa ano...."
He knows what he's about to say might sound disrespectful and he's trying to find the right words. Apparently, he never did.

"Kasi di sigurong magandang tignan pinapakita nyo yan. Nagsasaya kami tapos pinapakita yung..."
The first sentence sounded disrespectful. He should have said "....di sigurong magandang pinapakita nyong nagsasaya kami tapos pinapakita yung...".

"I don't think dapat ipakita yang punishment."
I'm not sure about this. Punishment? I don't have an idea what he meant by that. Maybe I'm hearing it wrong.

"E nahihirapan akong magsalita rito. Nagpapasaya ako. Nakikita ko yung ano ni Tita Cory. Sana pakitanggal naman muna yan. Sa ating ano trapik."
A funeral shouldn't have fun party music. An fun entertainment show shouldn't have gloom. See how Willie is stuck? His job is to entertain people and it's hard for him to put on a happy face when he can see the funeral. He did what he thought was best for the show.

"Kasi kung ganyan ipakita na lang natin yan."
He should have but he didn't. He has a job to do so he did it. The show must go on.

"Kasi nagsasaya kami dito tapos... Masakit sa akin yan e. Nagsasalita ako dito... yan bilis... Sana maintindihan nyo nagsasaya kami... papakita nyo sa amin yung.. diba? Di tama e, ok? Diba? Makapagsasalita na sila e, diba?"
He kept on saying "Nagsasaya kami" which , I believe, is the reason why some people misunderstood his intentions. "We're having fun here and that funeral is a buzzkill." is what some people thought he meant. "People are here to have fun and it is my job to entertain them and the funeral isn't helping." is what he probably meant. No disrespect to Cory.

*Crowd cheers*
This is where things got worse. He probably thought his not-so-clear speech conveyed his intentions clearly to the people because of the cheering. So he didn't put much thought to the words he said next. (I'm not sure, but I think there's someone cheering "Go, Willie!" in the audience. Maybe it's Joey de Leon encouraging Willie to say something stupid which he did)

"Hay nako. Pangit. Hindi maganda sya sa atin. Nagsasaya tayo pinapakita yung kabaong ni Tita Cory. Diba? Papano kami mapagsasaya? Nahihirapan kami. I'm sorry ha. Pero ako totoo ako e."
Notice how all the sentences are complete. No more hesitation. 100% I'm-speaking-my-mind-no-one-will-take-it-the-wrong-way-because-I-am-awesome. Crash and burn.

Willie isn't wrong here but he needs to speak more carefully and tone down his arrogance. If you're looking for someone to blame then blame the ABS-CBN management. They're using the funeral to increase their ratings. Why else would they show it simultaneuosly with an entertainment show?

Blog Logo and Favicon

I made myself a blog logo and a favicon. If you don't what a favicon is, it's the 16x16px image beside the URL. It makes my blog a bit different from the others. Imagine how many people are using the default blogger favicon. Here's a simple tutorial on how to make one.

http://www.blogger-book.com/2008/06/favicon-generator-free-host-blog.html

I can help you design your favicon if you want. :P

Competition?

More submissions from other applicants.

Among all the other submissions, I only find 2 to be decent and all but one didn't follow the directions. WEB 2.0 DESIGN. If a lot of applicants are like these, perhaps I've been selling myself too short. I set a very high standard for myself which can be helpful and frustrating.

Brief Update

It was brought to my attention that the comment button didn't work. So I've changed the template. The comment section works but you still have to go to the post itself as there is no "comment on this post" on the main page. I might look for another one but for now this will do. I'll try making my own template next time. Maybe.

Color Blind

(images taken from wikipedia)

These are simple tests to determine whether you're color blind or not. You should see the numbers 37, 44 or 49, and 56. If you're not able to see:

37: You're protanopic. You have difficulty distinguishing between blue and green colors and also between red and green colors.

44 or 49: You're deuteranopic. Red and green are the main problem colors, there are also for example some gray, purple and a greenish blue-green which can’t be distinguished very well.

56: You're tritanopic. People affected by this confuse blue with green and yellow with violet.

There are many different degrees of color blindness so not all color blind people miss the same colors.

I am color blind! I'm deuteranopic. I used to think color blind is just seeing everything in shades of gray. Apparently, that's only one of the different kinds of color blindness. Should I look for another line of work? How bad is it for a graphic artist to be color blind? I feel I've been robbed. I won't be able to see some things in life the way they really are. I wonder if being color blind has an effect on one's optimism or personality? Dull colors, dull world. They should make a study about that.

References:
wikipedia.com
www.colblindor.com
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I received a mail from PinoyGSM about a job. They gave this sort of test. Design a conceptual website for myBundyClock.com (a time keeping and payroll website). The only thing specified is they wanted a web 2.0 design. I didn't google for images to use. Just made a random text logo as a placeholder. I only focused on the web 2.0 design and the placing of information.



The thing I like about this test is no need for a portfolio. :D At least this way I can show what I can do. I know that's what a portfolio is for but I was lazy back then I just did things to pass. Am I regretting it now? Not really.

Holy.... they're posting the works submitted by the applicants. In my opinion, they shouldn't be doing this. Here are the other applicants' submissions.

Tiring But Fun

It all started when I got a call after dinner from a friend asking if I'm doing anything that night. The original plan was for the three of us to go uh... somewhere but I declined. So from a plan to no plan, from three guys to five, winning some money at the casino, pizza and beers, playing at the computer shop til morning, two hours of sleep at a friend's house, the farewell lunch at greenbelt (also saw the guy who interviewed me for a job at the resto) for a friend going to London, more computer games, dinner at Mcdo, I had a blast. Here's to more adventures to come! :D

Up, Down, Up, Down

I'm in a slump. I don't know when it started going downhill. I'm having a hard time sleeping again (a never ending cycle) and my eagerness to design "fake" companies is slowly fading. I did nothing but watch movies the past two days. Mostly downloads and one treat from my sister --- movie and dinner. Guess which movie it was? Here's a conversation from the movie:

Boy: You said that ______ would try to ______ me. Do you want me to let him?
Old Man: Yes.

Hmmm.

Then there's the job hunt. Bad news is still no word from the company I liked. Good news is I got an email from an advertising company about my jobstreet application. I'm not that excited though because they asked for sample works/portfolio for a preliminary screening. I sent some including the latest but I need more! I'm not really expecting them to call me for an interview. I want to work in an advertising company but with my current works I'm not getting my hopes up. Don't get me wrong. I'm not saying I'm not qualified. I am. I just need more projects.

EDIT: Logo design for an old product "Honey Beetz". It's not being sold anymore.



I need to make more! If you would like to help me, you can give me a "fake" project or a real one. Logos, websites, brochures, posters, anything that involves graphic designing! Give me the name of the company, nature of the business, color theme, do you have a specific look or feel you're aiming for, etc. I know I could give make up those details myself but it's practice. I might subconsciously cheat if I do it myself.

This post for help would work better if there were a lot of people reading my blog. Right now, I only have one follower and she's a real life friend. Hey friend! Help me!

Final Design: Nine Deep Website

Again, Nine Deep did not hire me to design this. I only used their name and business as practice.

Eeny, Meeny, Miny, Moe

I've been to 3 job interviews.

First one was for the position of graphic artist for a Chinese company in Roxas Blvd. I would say the interview went well. I was given a test. I was to create a logo for one of their brands. I did okay but the boss himself wanted the logo to be like Sony's. Just letters, no illustrations. So they gave me homework. 4 logos each for their 2 brands. It was hard conceptualizing because I don't know what those brands are and they never said what they wanted aside from "just letters". So I made some random ones and sent them. Still no word from them. I'm not really fond of the working environment. There are a lot of Chinese working there. Not Chinese like me, born and raised in the Philippines, who only knows basic fookien and mandarin but ones that were made in China. Hardcore ones. I imagine myself hanging out with them during work. Painfully awkward.

Co-worker: Ni hao. (How are you?)
Me: Wo hao. (I'm fine.)
Co-worker: Ni chu lu xia ba la nan ni? (Some random deep chinese words)
Me: Wo pu hao le. (I'm not fine anymore *nosebleed*.)

Second one was for a telecommunications company in Libis. I was suppose to have the final interview already but the CEO, who was going to interview me, asked for my portfolio. Good thing, I made one. It's my temporary (rushed) online portfolio. I only have a few works on my computer. I uploaded the ones I think to be mediocre at least. I admit none of those works show my true *ahem* awesomeness because I never gave it my all when doing my school exercises. Most of the stuff I uploaded were school works and random works I made when playing around with Photoshop. Only one work there was serious. He scrolled down quickly to the bottom and clicked one and asked, "Is this all of it?"

HOLY SHIT BALLS! I didn't finish my MMA degree and I never made it to the PORTFOL subject. The one where they require you to create a portfolio showing your works. So I really don't have much works to show. So in my head I was thinking maybe I still have some in my computer. So I told him that and he said I go home and send it to him by e-mail. Since I am applying for the graphic/web designer position, he won't be able to interview me without seeing more of my works. It took at least an hour to go to the company, at least 10 minutes waiting while listening to the HR interviewing three other applicants applying for the Asst. Accountant position, and it took less than 5 minutes for the supposed to be final interview. I sent some more works and made one quickly (hopefully it will help but rushed work qualities are usually mediocre at best). So now I'm waiting for their call again. I really would like to work there but it seems chances of being hired are low. And to top it off, my friend just had an interview there too. My way in just got smaller. :(

Third and least was for a logistics company in Novaliches. It took me at least 2 hours to get there. LRT, LRT2, jeep, jeep, jeep, walk. Apparently, I took a detour somewhere. The interview went well but I wasn't fond of the position they offered. The online ad said graphic artist but what was being offered was digital printer operator. It was more on the technical side and just a little bit of graphic modification (if there's something to be modified). I don't mind learning the technical stuff but after that what else is there? I don't see any opportunities working there.

After the portfolio fiasco, I realized why I always feel my works are missing something. It's a goal. When I design, it's usually free flow. There's no direction. As long as it looks okay, I'm fine with it. So to change this way of designing I asked a fellow designer friend to pretend to be my client. He made some logos for a company that sells surfing t-shirts and asked me to do the same along with a website. The theme is vintage.

LOGO DESIGNS

First one is clean and professional looking but uses a modern design.



WEB DESIGN

Photo of the wave (although I did the white edges and vintage effect) and the illustration of a man in the lower left corner are not mine. I just googled them. The red shirt is not a product of Nine Deep. I got it from www.zoozoo2.com since Nine Deep's current site doesn't show surfing shirts.



I have a more satisfied feeling with this design. I did some research on vintage designs. The design is more detailed than my free flows. I definitely gave more effort. But I still feel it lacks something. That something is probably content. Mainly, the area below the "SHIRTS UP!" I'll try to make up some content for it tomorrow.

If I don't get the job in Libis, I should start doing more of this "pretend client" practice. So next time I'm asked for my portfolio, I'm ready. :D

Can't seem to catch the zzZs

So yesterday I got a phone call for a job interview and 10 minutes after that I got another one! I was surprised and felt a tiny rush of excitement. Finally, after more than 2 weeks of sending resumes, I was called! I have some things to prepare: resumes, 2x2s, NBI clearance, answers for questions they might ask like :

Tell me something about yourself.
What are your strengths and weaknesses?
How do you feel about Michael Jackson's death?

Excited and nervous. Maybe that's the reason why I only "slept" for 2 hours.

I wouldn't call it sleep though. It felt like I was half awake most of the time, like I was stuck in the "drifting off to sleep" part. So I woke up. Thrashed around in bed. Took a sleeping pill. Played PSP. Watched some TV. Ate some leftover pizza. Checked my facebook. Read some new manga chapters. And now I'm writing a post. Time is 5:39am. Four hours and a half from the time I took that pill. Should be working right about.... nope, still awake. It would be funny if it started working while I'm taking my 2x2.

Ready? One, two an.... *crash*

I guess I better go get ready. Hope I don't fall asleep while taking a shower. (-_-)

EDIT: People who have a hard time getting some sleep should try this. I know I will.
Acrupressure For Insomnia

When I grow up, I want to be a/an.....

2 weeks has passed since I started looking for a job. Still no luck. Still a bum (hence the image) It's so damn hard to find graphic designing jobs that accept people with no work experience. If that's not annoying enough, some even prefer experience working in advertising.

I like graphic design and all but I like to try other things as well. If companies were open-minded and know that the skills of a person don't come from a degree but his/her passion for whatever he/she is pursuing. I've seen lots of good graphic designers but the course they graduated from had nothing to do with arts. In fact, most of their knowledge are self-taught.

So here's a list of what I would like to do to earn money aside from graphic/web design:

Photography
I like taking pictures and it would be better if I'm getting paid doing it. I have an entry level DSLR (thanks to my dad) and I don't get to use it much except when I go out with my friends. The place where we live doesn't have a scenic view; just buildings and a crowded busy street. I plan on buying different kinds of lenses for the camera (not in the near future). It would be nice working for a magazine or an advertising company.

Advertising
Ads. Billboards. Commercials. It seems fun conceptualizing for a product or something. Advertising is about getting people's attention. I see lots of advertisements but rarely do they get my attention. Smart, funny or witty concepts are rare. Sex ads (ads that only show lots of skin) are common. A professor of mine said using sex in an advertisement is like cheating. You don't need to conceptualize much. Just get a gorgeous woman and pose sexy.

Movie Producer
I'm not sure if producer is the right word. I could direct but it's much less of a hassle if I just find the right director and co-direct. I could write a script (I have great ideas but I don't entertain it much because it's not practical to do it as a way to earn money) but I'd rather find someone who wrote a great script and edit it if necessary. Am I right in saying this is producing? If someone is crazy enough to take a risk by making me a co-producer or something, that would be awesome. Dream on, I know.

Scriptwriting
Like I said, I have ideas that I would like to be made into movies or series but it's hectic and doesn't guarantee cash. Hectic because there's a format when writing scripts and it takes an estimate of more than 120 pages for a one hour movie. But if I were to be working with a team filled with original, funny, creative, smart, and witty people it will be much easier and more fun. Sadly, I think they're quite rare here in the philippine movie/showbiz industry.

Acting
One of the easiest thing to do. Just pretend to be somebody you're not. It's much easier too here in the Philippines. If you don't have any acting talent, it's okay. As long as you're good looking and the masses love you. I guess that's what attracts most people to it. It's not that hard (except crying, for me anyway) . Easy money! Two words everyone likes to hear. If I were given an opportuniy to be an actor, I would take it. Although I would only take supporting roles and also no drama. Crying is hard. Who the hell enjoys thinking of sad, hurtful things so tears will come out? The only downside to this is fame. Yes, fame brings more money. I like money but I also like walking in public places where no one gives a shit about you. Oh, and also no nudity. :P

There are a lot more things I'd like to try but these are the top 5. I can only dream of getting some of these jobs because in the real world you need a degree that relates to the job. That's one of the reasons why I decided to get another degree (Multimedia Arts) so I could get a job as a graphic designer. But then I realized that I'm wasting my time learning almost nothing from uninspiring professors. That's one of the reason why I decided to stop studying (I'm on leave indefinitely) and started looking for a job. I took the chance that somebody might take a chance to hire me (not a graduate of an art course) as their graphic designer.

Tomorrow morning I will be calling these job ads I found today. Good luck to me and all the people looking for a job.

Charging head on

Last night I watched "Front of the Class" on HBO. It's based on the life of Brad Cohen who has Tourette's Syndrome (a neurological disorder characterized by repetitive, stereotyped, involuntary movements and vocalizations called tics. -www.ninds.nih.gov). I'm not writing a movie review so I'm gonna keep it short. I like it and I recommend people to watch it.

I'm kind of jealous of Brad Cohen. Not jealous of his Tourette's but his optimism. He has a disability and yet he never gives up. After watching the movie, I was inspired. I told myself I should give optimism a shot. I'm not pessimistic (to others anyway). I consider myself a realist or balance-ist (Look it up the dictionary... the word doesn't exist). A balance-ist is a person who will be optimistic or pessimistic depending on the situation. If I have a friend who's down and pessimistic about something, I'll help him look at the bright side of it. If ignorantly and overly optimistic about something, I'll give him a reality bitch slap. Don't get their hopes too high but don't let them go too low either. Everything in moderation.

Being optimistic is hard for me. I hate being disappointed. I guess when I was a kid I was let down a lot and developed this defense mechanism to avoid people/events/things that may cause any disappointment. Optimism is about focusing on your desires and I'm used to focusing on my fears. It's not "I want this to happen" but "I don't want this to happen". So as a step in improving my life, from now on I will not avoid eye contact! I will not avoid women that are flirting with me or overly friendly women! I will not avoid opportunities that may cause disappointment! I will not avoid running over a pedestrian! Hurrah!

Don't judge me!

I did something bad yesterday and I feel guilty about it. Oh the shame of it! D:

My friends and I went to see a client of ours to show the design of their website. The client didn't get to see it because the file mysteriously disappeared. Sucks. So after that we went to another friend's house but before that we stopped by a Burger Machine. They have this "Buy 1 Take 1 Jumbo Burger" promo. There were four of us. I let them order for me. I thought they ordered FOUR "Buy 1 Take 1"s.

Sadly, I was wrong. I already started eating my friend's share while he was searching for it. I honestly thought we were supposed to have two burgers each. :( He was okay with it (A true friend.... unlike me.) but finishing the burger was hard. Every bite was accompanied by guilt.

Moral lesson of the story. Choose your friends wisely. :P

This blog ain't longer a virgin.

Woohoo my first post!

I'm not exactly new to blogging. I had two blogs in the past. Both were failures. Reason is I got lazy. Hopefully, this one will last more than a month. :D

I'm just posting this to see how the template I downloaded works. XD

EDIT: First template I used was awesome but it had some problems. Bummer. So I'll be using this one instead. Simple, clean and no problems (as of now).